Jeg snublet omkring i svarteste natten
Da tente du stjernen med lys ifra deg
Jeg følte meg ensom og tom og forlatt
Da du viste du tenkte på meg
Jeg hutret og frøs da du gav meg din varme
Du så vel at jorda var naken og kald
Du lengtet til meg, og du sendte meg barnet
Og viste meg vei til en stall
Himmel på jord
En glede så stor
Jeg er’ke alene
Her jeg bor
Jeg sloss og jeg led, gjorde alt for å vinne
Da hørte jeg englene synge om fred
Legg våpnene ned, det er jul du må finne
En fred inni hjertet et sted
Himmel på jord
En nåde så stor
Jeg er’ke alene
Her jeg bor
Hver gang jeg ser opp på min himmel så vet jeg
At undrenes under er det som har hendt
Jeg føler meg trygg for jeg slipper å lete
Nå vet jeg hvor stjernen ble tent
Himmel på jord
En nåde så stor
Jeg er’ke alene
Her jeg bor
Amund Enger (født 12. april 1954) er en norsk musiker, sanger, gitarist og låtskriver. Hans mest kjente komposisjon er sangen «Himmel på jord» med tekst av Jan Vincents Johannessen.
Haugtussa, hvor sitatet over er hentet fra, er en diktsamling skrevet av den Jærske forfatteren Arne Garborg. Jeg er fra et sted rett ved der han bodde og Garborg har alltid for meg vært et kjært bekjentskap. Jeg har lest en god del av bøkene hans, men kommer stadig tilbake til Haugtussa. Jeg har en musikalsk tolkning av verket av Lynni Treekrem som jeg setter på når jeg trenger noe varmt og godt å høre på. På gymnaset skrev jeg om Garborg i særoppgaven, og heldig for meg, gikk det veldig bra.
Haugtussa er eit diktverk om grunnkreftene i menneskelivet. Om striden mellom ånd og trolldoms vald, og samstundes ein lovsang om naturen. Gjennom Veslemøy har Garborg skildra kampen mot mørkemaktene. Veslemøy er synsk. Ho kan sjå gjennom menneska og inn i huldreheimen. Men ho er og lys levande og får røyne svik i kjærleik.
Jeg har ikke tenkt å skrive en tolkning eller en dypdykkende studie av Haugtussa her, men jeg viser deg gjerne til andre som har gjort det. Feks Dyade som skriver om Haugtussa i tolkningen; Når seksualiteten våkner. NRK sin film fra skolefjernsynet; Haugtussa. Eller den fantastiske omtalen og analysen på bloggen Helt grei Poesi. De sier alle det jeg strever med å sette ord på. Jeg ville gjerne at du skulle få høre Lynni Treekrem og «Mot soleglad», men så snill var ikke you tube. Så da blir det «Til deg du heid og bleike myr» istedenfor. Dette diktet er også et av mine favorittdikt i Haugtussa:
Musikk av Ketil Bjørnstad, bilder av Theodor Kittelsen og sang av Lynni Treekrem.
Men du kan likevel få med deg teksten på «Mot soleglad». Her i originalutgave:
Mot Soleglad
Det stig av Hav eit Alveland
med Tind og Mo;
det kviler klaart mot Himilrand
i kveldblaa Ro.
Eg saag det tidt som sveipt i Eim
bak Havdis graa;
det er ein huld, ein heilag Heim,
me ei kann naa.
Ho søv, den fine Tinderad
i Draume-bann;
men so ei Stund ved Soleglad
ho kjem i Brand.
Naar Dagen sig som Eld og Blod
i Blaae-Myr,
det logar upp med Glim og Glod
og Æventyr.
Det brenn i Brè og skjelv og skin
med Gullan-Bragd,
og Lufti glø’r i Glans av Vin,
Sylv og Smaragd.
Men av han døyr, den bleike Brand
som slokna Glod,
og klaart som fyrr ligg Alveland
i kveldblaa Ro.
Eg lengta tidt paa trøytte Veg
der ut til Fred;
men Lande fyrst kann syne seg,
naar Sol gjeng ned.
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`’Tis some visitor,’ I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door –
Only this, and nothing more.’
Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; – vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow – sorrow for the lost Lenore –
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore –
Nameless here for evermore.
And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me – filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`’Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door –
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; –
This it is, and nothing more,’
Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,’ said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you’ – here I opened wide the door; –
Darkness there, and nothing more.
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!’
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!’
Merely this and nothing more.
Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,’ said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore –
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; –
‘Tis the wind and nothing more!’
Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door –
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door –
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.
Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,’ I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore –
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!’
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’
Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning – little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door –
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.’
But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered – not a feather then he fluttered –
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before –
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.’
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.’
Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,’ said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore –
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of «Never-nevermore.»‘
But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore –
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.’
This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o’er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o’er, She shall press, ah, nevermore!
Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
`Wretch,’ I cried, `thy God hath lent thee – by these angels he has sent thee
Respite – respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!’
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’
`Prophet!’ said I, `thing of evil! – prophet still, if bird or devil! –
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted –
On this home by horror haunted – tell me truly, I implore –
Is there – is there balm in Gilead? – tell me – tell me, I implore!’
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’
`Prophet!’ said I, `thing of evil! – prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us – by that God we both adore –
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore –
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?’
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’
`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!’ I shrieked upstarting –
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! – quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!’
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’
And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted – nevermore!
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. I love thee to the level of everyday’s Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. I love thee with a passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints, — I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life! — and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.
Just the other night, at a hometown football game
My wife and I ran into, my old high school flame
And as I introduced them, the past came back to me
And I couldn’t help but think of, the way things used to be.
She was the one, that I’d wanted for all times
And each night I’d spend prayin’, that God would make her mine
And if he’d only grant me, this wish I wished back then
I’d never ask for anything again.
Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers
Remember when you’re talkin’ to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn’t answer doesn’t mean he don’t care
Some of God’s greatest gifts, are unanswered prayers.
She wasn’t quite the angel, that I remembered in my dreams
And I could tell that time had changed me, in her eyes too it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days, there wasn’t much we could recall
I guess the Lord knows what he’s doin’ after all.
And as she walked away, and I looked at my wife
And then and there I thanked the good Lord, for the gifts in my life.
Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers
Remember when you’re talkin’ to the man upstairs
That just because he may not answer, doesn’t mean he don’t care.
Some of God’s greatest gifts…are unanswered,
Some of God’s greatest gifts…are all too often unanswered…
Some of God’s greatest gifts…are unanswered prayers.